It’s days like today where, you seem to reach deep into your guts and pull some remnents of bullshit out and thud it through a keyboard onto your tumblr page…why? Who the fuck knows.
It’s days like today where, it’s too cold outside to theif some inspiration from the sun and the birds shitting silently on cars pasing by, or parked out the front of your house. You sit inside listening to the wind howling like a cyclone you know you aren’t going to have to deal with because you live where you live….it’s just the wind.
It’s Sunday..There is nothing on telly and i feel like i’m missing something. You know, where you wake up and feel like there is something happening in the world that you could very easily be apart of but you have no idea what is going on? Even just to jump on a train and trick yourself into sitting for 3 hours, just to get off and find yourself slumming through pigeion shit and clusters of idiots racing about the city like they’re actually in a hurry to get to where they’re headed…They’re not really… They’re just used to rushing because the city is so busy all the time.
To walk the streets of Sydney or Melbourne late at night and feel the city lights shining through you and giving you that buzz that only a drilling big city can. Not to worry about the cold or how you’re going to get back home because…..well, It just doesn’t matter. You’re not missing anything anymore. Those city lights have filled the void and no amount of sunshine and bird shit could make you feel more at home.
Today is one of those days where I’m not sure if the company of another/others, will scoop me out of this day dream and place me firmly back on my feet. If the company of my loved ones will help me make the feeling of blue, seldom. Their company could distract me until there is a moment of silence and I drift back off to those non-existant city lights and blistering cold nights..